I may be having a great summer and focusing on the good things in life but anxiety can still find me!
Basically, I am a bit freaked out by the thought of finishing my dissertation and actually graduating. I have been going to school for so long I have forgotten how to be if I am not a student. My whole identity has been wrapped up with being a student. Without a dissertation looming over me – I can’t even fathom that experience.
On some level, that fear is holding back the writing process. It is more than just the identity of being a student. It is the fear of not finding a job, having to pay back student loans, and most of all, making decisions about my future. For so long the decision has always been made by how will it fit within my graduate school career. Now what?
For now, I guess I just have to keep moving forward and have faith that things will work out. Back to the mat….
